FACT or Fiction : The reveal

FACT or Fiction : The reveal

Labels: Fact or Fiction? / My life / RBW Relationship Talk

First, I have to say thank you to everyone who think so highly of me and automatically thought it was completely fiction and out of character for me. In reality, that is the absolute truth, but we do all slip up sometimes and do things out of character when loves is involved.

With that said this was MY FACT.

Background story.

It was my senior year in college. Me and the BF had lived together for almost a year when he moved back to NYC with his mom. There was a month left in our lease when he left, and I couldn't afford to keep the apartment myself.

Me and the BF had broken up and gotten back together more times than the months we lived together. We were young, and stupid, and shouldn't have been living together in the first place. We were both too immature to handle it.

With that said, the reason I was so mad was because when he moved I wanted to break up, completely. I knew our past and knew the long distance thing wouldn't work. He insisted that we try to work it out, gave me the whole dance about loving me and me moving up there with him after I graduated (which was only 6 more months) and I bought it. Now that I am older I realize that whole thing was just to control me. He knew I would never cheat on him no matter how far away he lived, so he said he could commit just so I wouldn't be dating anyone else, knowing damn well he was going to be doing his thang in NY.

Either way I moved in with the new roommate when the lease was up. My BF was pissed, knowing that ol' boy had tried to holla at me before, but he knew my situation and that options were limited. Plus he trusted me, and had no reason not to.

Now let me clear up the sex part. He wasn't the smallest but he wasn't well endowed, a little smaller than average I suppose, so I really couldn't feel him. I think my body was starting to numb itself to all feeling anyway because I was so hurt, or maybe it just seemed like it was bad to me because that's when I started thinking in my head, "what the hell am I doing?" I do although feel he took advantage of me and was probably waiting for my BF to f*ck up so he could make his move. Even though I felt 10 times worse after, I don't regret that I did it at all.

Also I have to clear up the way I found out. That part of the story was a fib. He gave me a bullshit story about not being able to come down for Valentines Day so I checked his text message log online. We lived together so I knew all his passwords to everything. That's where I saw the messages from them back and forth that she was coming to visit and their plans. I just didn't feel like going into detail there because it would have taken to long so I gave the story about his phone calling me by mistake.

The next day I called BF and the other chick. He had been dating her off and on for a while too. Me and her had a pleasant conversation. It was funny because he knew we were talking and kept calling both of our phones while we were on the phone together. Hilarious now that I think back on it. He was panicking like crazy.

Sad part is, this wasn't the end between me and him. I thought I was completely done and hadn't talked to him since the incident and then he surprised me by showing up at my graduation. The drama picked up right back where it left off. I finally completely got over him in 2005, and we are still friends til this day. One thing about Eb is she never holds a grudge or is bitter about a situation no matter how bad it was. I am still friends with all my ex's. I may have to remove myself from the situation for a while, but they know if they need me they can always count on me.

Oh, and this was the first time I cried over a dude... had a couple more tears shed because of this same dude after that, but he still remains the only guy who has made me cry. Promised myself I wouldn't cry over a dude again unless they were happy tears.

Any questions?